Monday, May 26, 2014

Surrender, Love, and Mist

Tonight, as I sit here writing, I hear rain pelting my roof. Rainy season in Guatemala has just started in the last few weeks; one of my favorite sounds is pouring rain, so I'm pretty excited with the lullaby I get (almost) each night to fall asleep to.
This past week has been an amazing one! At a glance, it doesn't seem like much out of the norm. happened, so I'll give you a closer look.
The biggest news is that Ron is back! He left on a 5 wk. trip to the states the day after I got to Guate. in April. It's been great having him around again, but I still forget sometimes that he's here. Mental adjustment still in progress. :P The same day he came home, a college group from TX came to work with us for a week.
That's the second cool thing that happened. I'd been talking to God about how I would love to have some ppl. my age drop in for a visit, then, two days later, 11 of em show up! This year, I've been learning in so many different ways that God loves to answer the prayers for little things close to our hearts that seem 'insignificant' in the big picture. It was a lot of fun to come home from work and see them at dinner time then hang out afterwards. My two 'minions' and I also led worship to kick off debrief and discussion times each evening. They were such an enthusiastic group and really caught the vision of taking back with them what they learn here. It was such an encouragement to see their passion for Christ being poured into the projects they did and people they came into contact with.
Another out-of-the-ordinary thing this week happened on Wednesday. In one of the poorest villages the Bethany Program works in (Mactzul 2), there are only 2 families in the sponsorship program but 12 more are on the waiting list. We don't have enough sponsors from the states to give these families regular help; however, whenever teams/people donate clothes, toys, etc. we divvy everything up into bags to make packets to deliver to our 'waiting list' families. On Wed. Kique, Sonia, and I delivered the most recent packets to these families. The joy on their faces over a bag of seemingly nothing was so wonderful to see.
Please pray for more sponsors for the families who are waiting. If you or anyone you know wants more information about the program and how it works, check out the website: bethanyonefamily.org.


Ok, now on to the part about surrender, love, and mist. You ready? Here goes!
On Friday morning, I got up at my usual time, made my usual cup of coffee, and took my usual wooden chair out to my usual porch/balcony for my usual morning alone-time with God. Each day, I pray for God to find in me a willing surrendered vessel to use to pour out His love to those around me. That morning, I asked God, "Is there a part of me I'm holding back or am I surrendered? Is Your love being poured out thru me?" My Father will often speak to me through pictures. First, He answered, "Yes! My love is being poured out thru you and touching lives." Then, He gave me such a beautiful picture that I wanted to share with you all.
Imagine a person with their back to you, arms uplifted, hands wide open, head upraised, standing in the rain. When you stand in the rain long enough like this, what happens? You get soaking wet. Now, imagine this thoroughly soaked person opening a door, walking into a house, and sitting on a couch. What just happened to the door handle, the floor, and the couch (and anything else s/he touched on way)? They got wet, right? "But what does that have to do with surrender, love, and mist?" you ask. Just stick with me - I'm getting there!
In a previous blog, Reality of Love, I wrote more on what love is all about (it's worth reading if you haven't yet). The long and short of it is that true love is not - at all - about ourselves. In a relationship with Christ, it is so important to live with a heart surrendered to the will of the Father. Through willingness and obedience, His love is made so much more real in our lives. So, if you want to love like Christ you need to be surrendered to Christ. Period. It's not been easy but it's such an important lesson that I've been learning.
Remember the person you imagined two paragraphs ago? "a person with their back to you, arms uplifted, hands wide open, head upraised" That is picture of a Christian who's life is surrendered completely to God. Now, imagine a bit farther - imagine the rain as the love of God. When you stand with life completely surrendered the love of God pours into you. What happens when you stand this way long enough? You get soaking 'wet' - 'wet' with His love. So, no matter where you walk, what/who you touch, what you say, etc., whatever and whoever your life touches will also receive a touch of the love of God - they too become 'wet.'
After I opened my eyes and looked up, I realized that it had started to mist. It was such a light drizzle that I couldn't even hear it hitting the glass patio table just a few feet away; but as I watched, I saw the table start dripping from the wetness of the mist. My Father spoke to my heart again.
To get wet you don't have to be in a pouring rain. There are times in life - maybe on a mission trip, at Bible camp, during revival meetings, etc. - that the love of God seems to pour into our lives. We go home soaking with His love and we know it! If we don't continue to surrender daily, it's like seeking shelter. Even if you don't change your clothes, if you're under shelter long enough you will eventually dry out. The daily life of a Christian living in surrender can be compared to experiencing God's love as a mist. It's not always obvious without looking closely, but it is most definitely real. Like a drizzling mist still soaks and waters, so the the 'not-so-obvious' work of love soaks and waters your life. People around you will get 'wet', just as much as they do when you experience the 'obvious' work of love.
Don't hold back on fully living life! Live with arms uplifted, hands wide open, and head upraised. Then watch and see what the love of God will do. 


Isaiah 6:8
Then I heard the voice of the Lord saying, "Whom shall I send? And who will go for us? And I said, "Here am I. Send me!" 

Sunday, May 18, 2014

A Bad Day

So, you think you've had a bad day, huh?
Everything seems like it's all crashing in on you, the kids are all having emotional meltdowns at the same time, the laundry's piling up cuz the washer broke, your boss yelled at you today...all you wanna do is crawl into bed and pretend like today never happened - hopefully it's all just a bad dream. 
Before you break down, before you yell at your teenager, before you kick the washer, before you defend yourself, take a minute, take a breath, and think about Sebastian. 
Sebastian's brother, Tomas 

Sebastian - 3 1/2 years old, hardly smiles, barely talks, cute as a button

Every day, he wakes up in a dirty house on a few wide planks of wood mounted on cement blocks with blankets thrown over them to form a makeshift bed. 
If his father is home, he knows it's best to take his younger brother, Tomas, outside to play because their dad needs his sleep before leaving in search of his next drink. 
If he gets breakfast, his grandmother makes it for him. She loves her grandsons but is deaf, so she doesn't converse with them much. 
His mother is busy taking care of their 1 month old youngest brother. She has some minor mental deficiencies and doesn't always remember to make sure her two oldest get bathed, dressed, or fed properly. She isn't quite sure how old her newborn is and hasn't named him yet. Last year, they lost another little baby and she's decided to follow the local custom in waiting until this baby is 40 day old before naming him - this way, she might not become quite as attached and it won't be so hard if she loses him. 
Sebastian fully comprehends everything that's said to him and will respond with nodding, pointing, etc; but with a grandmother who can't hear, a mother who sometimes forgets he's there, and a father who is rarely home without being drunk, there's no one to teach him how to form the words that will allow him to express what's going on inside. 
When Gloria and Henry first started visiting his family, he was scared of what these outsiders might do. Were they able to be trusted? He and Tomas would cry and hide. Soon, their gentleness won him over and he isn't as afraid of the camera anymore. He's also proud of being the big brother and showing Tomas that they don't have to cry. 
These outsiders were friendly. They smiled a lot. His grandmother enjoyed talking with them; she talked more with them then with anybody else he knew. They were patient with her and didn't get upset when she couldn't hear what they were saying. They didn't yell loudly like his mother did in their attempt to communicate. 
Come to think of it, they didn't yell at all. They would give him hugs when he let them. Sometimes, he wished he could talk to them. He wished he could tell them when he was afraid of his father. 
Whenever they left, he quietly followed them to their car and sat under the tree in the yard to watch them drive away. It made him sad when they left. It made Tomas sad too. People always left. Whenever their dad was home, he would surely leave again soon. 
But Gloria and Henry would come back. It always took a while but they always came back. They were always smiling and happy. What made them happy? One day, he would find out. One day, things would be better...

So, you think you've had a bad day, huh? 
I don't want to minimalize your feelings or disqualify your emotions. 
But.
Before you break down, before you yell at your teenager, before you kick the washer, before you defend yourself, take a minute, take a breath, and think about Sebastian.
Take a minute to count your blessings.
Take a time out for thankfulness.  


The King will reply, "Truly I tell you, whatever you did for one of the least of these...you did for me." Matt. 25: 40

And now these three remain: faith, hope and love, but the greatest of these is love. 1 Cor. 13:13

Jesus said, "Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of heaven belongs to such as these." Matt. 19: 14


Saturday, May 10, 2014

There Is A Time

There is a time for everything and a season for every purpose under heaven.

A time to live - a time to die


A time to plant - a time to pull up
                        (a time for growth and discipline) 


A time to tear down - a time to build up
                                (a time to correct - a time to encourage) 


A time to weep - a time to laugh
                         (how many times do we try to make someone smile when what they really need is a shoulder to cry on and someone to cry with?) 


A time to mourn - a time to dance
                          (tho sorrow may last for a night, joy comes with the morning) 


A time to scatter - a time to gather
                           (a time to send out - a time to call together) 


A time to embrace - a time to let go
                              (live this gift of life to the fullest potential, but don't hold on too tightly - we have no control over what happens. The best way to live is with a heart full of gratitude and an open hand and heart)


A time to search - a time to give up
                          (giving up is hard but, more often then we realize, it's very necessary in order to move forward)


A time to keep - a time to throw away
                        (are you holding on to something that needs to be forgiven, thrown away, put in the past?)


A time to be silent - a time to speak up
                             (sometimes saying nothing is the greatest good we can do, but oh for wisdom and courage to speak up in the face of the most challenging times!)


A time to love - a time to hate


A time for war - a time for peace


God has made everything beautiful in His time. He has set eternity in the human heart - yet we can't fathom what He has done from beginning to end.
Everything God does will endure forever; nothing can be added to it and nothing taken from it. He does this so that people with revere and worship Him.
Whatever is has already been, and what will be has been before. God seeks what has been driven away.

For there will be a time for every activity, and a time to judge every deed.

(excerpts from Ecclesiastes 3)